I am. Part 1

I am woman

I am movement

Calm, soothing vibrations

Gently swaying back and forth

I am an inviting energy

Creative

Momentous

Surrounding everything with love

While spreading my light so others can shine

I am the embodiment of

I am

I am woman

Amazing and kind

Gentle and warm

Gangsta and real

I am Queen

Standing with my head held high

Walking in majesty

Rocking these purple locs

Cause

Royalty is written in my

DNA

My blueprint for living

My vision, my destiny

I am woman

Unearthed

Bringing forth light unto others

Allowing my gifts to uplift and shine

No longer sitting on the sidelines

No longer accepting less than

Because I am an expression

Of more

Always recognizing that

Always asserting that

I am deserving of more

Therefore I give unto myself

More

I am woman

Proud, Black, and Beautiful

I laugh, I cry, I sing, I pray,

Never allowing my crown

To be removed

I am woman

I am all that I am

And then some

I am enough

I am every vision of love

Because love lives in my being

It runs through my veins

It covers me

I am woman

I am movement

Calm and gangsta

Royalty and love

A moving force

A gentle touch

The sweetest smile

And warming hugs

I am woman.

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I am Dope

I am dope

I am that fly and that funky fresh

I am all that and then some

I am

More than you’d like to admit

My dopeness gets you lit

Gets you hype

And will set you right

And that’s when you realize

That my shine doesn’t

Dim. Your. Light

I am dope

A woman of brilliant mind

Use to be afraid of this shine

But God said that’s alright

So now I shine wherever I go

Glowing to help others grow

Moving and grooving

Perfecting this poetic flow

allowing my inner beauty to show

I am dope

Filled with beauty and wonder

Gifted and talented

I am kind and genuine

Authentic and amazing

Love is what I live and breathe

And in my dopeness

I am Queen

Royalty with an extra side a gangsta

so it’s best

To come correct

When you step to me

Approach me with respect and

I’ll offer reciprocity

I am dope

Full of flavor and pizzazz

I am hypnotic and enticing

And at times I am feisty

I am friend never foe

And in my eyes

Love is what I behold

I am dope

A spiritual movement

A helping hand

A healer

A lover

A poet

A creative

A mind glower

A giver of life

A body roller

A shoop shooer

A quiet smile

A calming touch

A support system

An inspirational being

A woman

Walking in the greatness

That lives in me..

Most of all

I am me

Embracing all of me

Sassy and classy

Moody and anxious

Often asking for forgiveness of flaws and faults

Imperfection in its greatest form

Human

But…

I. Am. Dope.

That’s all I can be..

Enough

You are enough

More than

And good

And although you are often misunderstood

Your light shines…

Even if you do not see it,

even if you cannot believe it

Believe this,

You are enough

Special in every kind of way

An energy of love, hope, peace, joy

Runs all through your veins

You are more than enough

So wear your smile

As your crown

Always walking with your

Head. Held. High.

Living your life on purpose

While walking in your purpose

You are good enough

So don’t you ever doubt

Your ability to be great

It’s time for you to

Shine. Out. Loud

You are enough

More than,

And good

Please never forget that.

Today, I love me more

Today I love me more

I love me when I am hardest to love

Often feeling undesirable and undeserving

I would tend to try to please

But that just took away from my being

Giving too much of my energy away for free

Today I love me more

Choosing me in each and every way

No longer afraid to speak up

Sharing what’s on my mind’s eye

giving me the best that I got

for I now know that I am enough

And regardless of hurts, pains, disappointments..

I am worthy of love

Today I love me more

Filled with love granted to me by God himself

He created me in His image

So how dare I not like what I see

In His reflection

Quieting out voices of

Those who never saw me

Those who were fighting with their own demons

No longer accepting

Others pains as the definition of me

Today I’m loving me more

Living the life that God has granted me

Walking into the Favor God has placed

On my life

No longer afraid to allow

My inner light

To illuminate the sky around me

Casting out darkness

And walking with my head held high

Lifted

Shining bright

Because my life is worth living

Today, I love me more…

Acknowledging my own dopeness

Being proud of it

‘Cause honestly, I know that I am

Lit

I am dope

I am Queen

Dare I say, I’m the shiiiiit

So, today, I love me more

And that’s just the way it is..

My promise to me

I will love me

I will love me day in and day out

In the here and now

I will love everything about my being

Always appreciative of mind, soul, and energy

Complimenting me daily

Opening my mind to new ways of showing me love

I will loooove me some me

Never having to rely on another

To attempt to see my worth

Because I already see it

Walking in the light of it every day

Because my inner light is brilliantly shining and showing me the way

It took me nearly 30 years to make this promise to myself

To see what others have tried to show me over time..

I will loooove on me so deeep

Without any question and without doubt

No hesitation and with ease

Because loving me is the only way to be free

To clear my mind of mental anxieties

To calm my extra crazy down a bit

I will love me

Because I am deserving of love.

She is beautiful

She is beautiful

Bushy eyebrows

Messy hair

Acne prone face

Glasses wearer

Imperfections according to society’s standards

But to her own, she is beautiful

She is queen in her own right

No longer afraid to

Shine out loud

She. Is. Beautiful.

Funny, genuine

Kind and crazy

She loves too hard

And is afraid of being left, abandoned

But she fights for herself

Daily

Never giving up on

Who she is becoming

She

Is

Beautiful

A mess of every kind

Knocked kneed

Jiggly

Big and bodacious

Ass phat and crooked toes

But she is beautiful

Her entire soul glows

Her light shines brighter than she realizes

Took her many years to finally

See this

She has cried many tears

To finally believe this

Walking away from the

Fear that paralyzed her

She is beautiful

Talented and gifted

Honest and worthy

She deserves her own love

Because she was made in love

The very image of God fills her up

Breathing life into lungs

Fearfully and wonderfully made

She is beautiful

I am beautiful

And I will never forget this again.

Renewing My Mind

Since the last time I wrote, which was a couple of days ago. I realize that I have to keep my weightloss in the forefront of my mind. When I get the urge to go to Sonic or even Wafflehouse, I am starting to think about ‘will and how will this decision help me with my goal of being healthy?’ Then the thought fades away, I go downstairs and make me a salad. I had a salad last night and though it was just plain, it tasted so yummy. I’m guess because of the freshness. Instead of using a creaming dressing, I used a light Italian dressing. My tastebubs did backflips. lol So, now I am realizing that I have to keep it constantly in my forefront. Especially with food decisions. I crave all kinds of foods. Wings, chicken phillies, Peach punch, and CAKES! I love sweets. I know I have to limit my sweet intake. or find at least find a smaller portioned size that is less detrimental to me. I dont want to do anything that will sabotage my efforts. I feel like I am really on a new run with this. Now if only I will get the exercising. I will. Im just going to walk first. Then when I get to Cali, hopefully I will be able to do Water Aerobics. I did it once before, and I loved it.

While I am working on my weight.. myself. I am kinda glad I am single. Especially since I am moving back to Cali. I dont want to give someone a Half Me. If I am going to be with someone, I would like to be whole. I dont want to go through all the stuff ive been through with relationships again. Make all the wrong decisions..again. I dont mind my singleness. It is actually comforting. I am being allowed to really focus on myself so that I can grow into my potential. I am focusing on the things I want to achieve and my health. Losing weight has alot to do with the mind. The mind can trick you and have you believing things about yourself that arent true. Different situations in life can also alter that way you think about yourself. This time in my life is about me. Self growth, Self love, Spiritual growth… cuz its going to take the God in me to overcome this. I am truly glad that my eyes are finally becoming open to this. Im taking it step by step and day by day.

I know I am going to succeed. I have visioned it. Now it is time to rock n roll with it.

~J~