See it before you see it

Tonight I listened to one of my favorite singer and musicians Avery Sunshine. I LOVE her so much and she is a great inspiration to me. She shared a song that she wrote before she met her husband who is also awesome. As she was introducing the song, she stated for those who are looking for love 🙌🏽(me) you gotta see it before you see it. That spoke to me. Saturday, May 2nd is my 35th birthday. I had hoped to be married and popping by now but other plans and life happens. However, no matter how many disappointments I encounter with dating and relationships, I still believe and desire love. I believe that love is for me. I believe marriage is for me. So I will take Avery’s testimony and word of wisdom and see it now while continuing in prayer over my future forever boo. I have written plenty of poems about love. But never one that truly speaks what I see into existence. Well.. maybe one. I am emotionally writing this message but y’all get the gist. Gotta see it before I see it. Speak life into it. Speak it and will it into existence.

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Strange Chemistry

We. Are. Strange.

Unique.

Weird.

Quirky.

Awkward.

See around him

I become this different version of me

Shy but open

Slightly off but always on

He incites a special part of me

That very few get to see

He opens me up to new ideas

New ways of thinking

He enlightens me

Got me over here contemplating life and

Thangs

Got the nerve to have me

Creating poetry about

A we..

And I don’t even know if that is to be..

But

He moves me

Mentally and spiritually

Opening my being

Allowing my essence to

Be free

Breathe. Out. Loud.

Blooming

From the way he

Holds me

Safe and sound

I wanna quiet the sound of

Outside noise

That makes me want to doubt

Question his intentions

And run..

Cause

This man is special

Black and proud

Gifted and talented

A man of character

A revolution in himself

He is…

Different

He tickles my fancy

And make my spidey senses tingle

And When he hugs me

Peace captures me in its grasp

Got me hoping and praying

That this grows

Into this strangely beautiful

And special..

Entity..

For he is a happy place

For me

He is friend and lover

Mover and shaker

And we get to eat delicious food

Together

Listen to different genres of grooves

Together..

We. Are. Strange

We have this magical

Yet beautifully strange chemistry

We have similarities but differences of plenty

And although we are different

When we come together…

Serenity

I can’t explain it

Don’t really understand it

We just strange

Unique.

Weird

Quirky

Awkward.

And it’s beautiful.

Magic

You. Are. Magic.

You are Mysterious and Majestic

A rare being

A Legend living

A force to be reckoned with

Goddess and Queen

You are spiritual.

You are a cosmic entity

You are the elements

created in and with all the

Brilliance and energy

You are music

The written lyrics

The melody and harmony

You are vocals and all instrumentation

You are dance

Freedom

Joyous movements

Expression

Vibrant

Colorful

Gifted

Extraordinary

You. Are. Love

Wholesome

Amazing

Patient and kind

Forgiving

Daily forgiveness of self

For settling for less

You are peace

Moving within

The serenity of your being

You are light

Brightly glowing

like black girl magic

You lit and you the shit

Humbly walking

In your truth

You. Are. Magic.

Never allow anyone to tell you otherwise

I am. Part 1

I am woman

I am movement

Calm, soothing vibrations

Gently swaying back and forth

I am an inviting energy

Creative

Momentous

Surrounding everything with love

While spreading my light so others can shine

I am the embodiment of

I am

I am woman

Amazing and kind

Gentle and warm

Gangsta and real

I am Queen

Standing with my head held high

Walking in majesty

Rocking these purple locs

Cause

Royalty is written in my

DNA

My blueprint for living

My vision, my destiny

I am woman

Unearthed

Bringing forth light unto others

Allowing my gifts to uplift and shine

No longer sitting on the sidelines

No longer accepting less than

Because I am an expression

Of more

Always recognizing that

Always asserting that

I am deserving of more

Therefore I give unto myself

More

I am woman

Proud, Black, and Beautiful

I laugh, I cry, I sing, I pray,

Never allowing my crown

To be removed

I am woman

I am all that I am

And then some

I am enough

I am every vision of love

Because love lives in my being

It runs through my veins

It covers me

I am woman

I am movement

Calm and gangsta

Royalty and love

A moving force

A gentle touch

The sweetest smile

And warming hugs

I am woman.

Newness

i must admit..

i havent smiled.. like this..

in quite some time..

your energy

wraps around me

pulling me..

soo into you..

this new found..

this.. willingness to..

be open..

this..

ability..

to share with you..

secret things..

and you not.. judge me.

got me rethinking..some things.

cuz once upon a time..

i said..

i would never..

allow another to

get this close to me..

again.. breaking down..

all barriers.

getting deep beneath my skin..

you did that.

how..

i dont know.

but.. i dont mind..

its almost like.

u appeared..

just in the nick of time.

and i am tho.rough.ly..

enjoying..

these..

moments.. of…us..

these… moments of..

gaining trust..

these.. moments..

i wouldnt want to share them with anyone else..

thank you…

for..

the continued..

smiles.

I am Dope

I am dope

I am that fly and that funky fresh

I am all that and then some

I am

More than you’d like to admit

My dopeness gets you lit

Gets you hype

And will set you right

And that’s when you realize

That my shine doesn’t

Dim. Your. Light

I am dope

A woman of brilliant mind

Use to be afraid of this shine

But God said that’s alright

So now I shine wherever I go

Glowing to help others grow

Moving and grooving

Perfecting this poetic flow

allowing my inner beauty to show

I am dope

Filled with beauty and wonder

Gifted and talented

I am kind and genuine

Authentic and amazing

Love is what I live and breathe

And in my dopeness

I am Queen

Royalty with an extra side a gangsta

so it’s best

To come correct

When you step to me

Approach me with respect and

I’ll offer reciprocity

I am dope

Full of flavor and pizzazz

I am hypnotic and enticing

And at times I am feisty

I am friend never foe

And in my eyes

Love is what I behold

I am dope

A spiritual movement

A helping hand

A healer

A lover

A poet

A creative

A mind glower

A giver of life

A body roller

A shoop shooer

A quiet smile

A calming touch

A support system

An inspirational being

A woman

Walking in the greatness

That lives in me..

Most of all

I am me

Embracing all of me

Sassy and classy

Moody and anxious

Often asking for forgiveness of flaws and faults

Imperfection in its greatest form

Human

But…

I. Am. Dope.

That’s all I can be..

Enough

You are enough

More than

And good

And although you are often misunderstood

Your light shines…

Even if you do not see it,

even if you cannot believe it

Believe this,

You are enough

Special in every kind of way

An energy of love, hope, peace, joy

Runs all through your veins

You are more than enough

So wear your smile

As your crown

Always walking with your

Head. Held. High.

Living your life on purpose

While walking in your purpose

You are good enough

So don’t you ever doubt

Your ability to be great

It’s time for you to

Shine. Out. Loud

You are enough

More than,

And good

Please never forget that.

Today, I love me more

Today I love me more

I love me when I am hardest to love

Often feeling undesirable and undeserving

I would tend to try to please

But that just took away from my being

Giving too much of my energy away for free

Today I love me more

Choosing me in each and every way

No longer afraid to speak up

Sharing what’s on my mind’s eye

giving me the best that I got

for I now know that I am enough

And regardless of hurts, pains, disappointments..

I am worthy of love

Today I love me more

Filled with love granted to me by God himself

He created me in His image

So how dare I not like what I see

In His reflection

Quieting out voices of

Those who never saw me

Those who were fighting with their own demons

No longer accepting

Others pains as the definition of me

Today I’m loving me more

Living the life that God has granted me

Walking into the Favor God has placed

On my life

No longer afraid to allow

My inner light

To illuminate the sky around me

Casting out darkness

And walking with my head held high

Lifted

Shining bright

Because my life is worth living

Today, I love me more…

Acknowledging my own dopeness

Being proud of it

‘Cause honestly, I know that I am

Lit

I am dope

I am Queen

Dare I say, I’m the shiiiiit

So, today, I love me more

And that’s just the way it is..

My promise to me

I will love me

I will love me day in and day out

In the here and now

I will love everything about my being

Always appreciative of mind, soul, and energy

Complimenting me daily

Opening my mind to new ways of showing me love

I will loooove me some me

Never having to rely on another

To attempt to see my worth

Because I already see it

Walking in the light of it every day

Because my inner light is brilliantly shining and showing me the way

It took me nearly 30 years to make this promise to myself

To see what others have tried to show me over time..

I will loooove on me so deeep

Without any question and without doubt

No hesitation and with ease

Because loving me is the only way to be free

To clear my mind of mental anxieties

To calm my extra crazy down a bit

I will love me

Because I am deserving of love.